Book Review | Just Here for the Pain by K.A. Merikan

Sid. Drummer for The Underdogs. Secretly yearning for pain and submission.
Asher. AKA Stan. Stalker. More than meets the eye.

It’s hard to find good hookups while on tour. Sid wants pain, humiliation, and the kind of sex that isn’t easy to get from one-night stands. So for now, he’s given up, settled for an online Dom to get his rocks off, and focused on his band instead. The Underdogs are getting increasingly popular, but there is one fan who has followed Sid since before he even joined the band, and he’s driving Sid mad! Rich, spoiled hipster brat looking for the bad boy experience. If he knew what Sid was really into, he would run for the hills.

Asher is convinced that Sid is The One, his One True Love, his endgame. Years ago, Asher lost his virginity to Sid, and from that moment on, he knew it was meant to be. They had a spark, that honest connection that couldn’t be faked. The members of Sid’s band call him a stalker, but all he wants is to offer Sid his love. When Sid finally chokes out what he wants, Asher is more than ready to unleash it on him.

But the last time Sid was out as gay and submissive, he got badly burnt when his former band kicked him out, and the doors to many opportunities slammed in his face.
Asher wants the whole world to know that he’s dating Sid. Problem is, Sid would much rather keep the relationship as pain-with-benefits.

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How was it?

With a title like that I knew to expect BDSM, in fact despite this being my first K.A Merikan read, I’ve sort of associated the author with kinky, BDSM stories.

However what I didn’t expect was to be far more interested in the plot than the scenes, as in BDSM scenes. It’s not just me not totally being into that level of BDSM play, because I’ve read a few stories depicting acts that I probably wouldn’t try, yet those stories still totally enthralled me into them. In this case I was game but not feeling it almost going through the motions at times. Yet I’d bet that to the right reader these BDSM scenes might be the hottest thing ever.

What grabbed my attention was the story between Asher and Sid. Their history is so weird and complicated that it grabbed me throughout. Their character growth were really good. The author didn’t shy away from the resentment stemming from their shared history, and managed not to saturate the story with angst and too much lack of communication drama.

I went in for the kink but totally stayed for the romance. The portrayal of BDSM is good, even great if you’re into it, but the romance is just as captivating.

Rating: 4 out of 5.

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